Running on Empty: Finding Grace Before the Reprieve
Running on Empty: Finding Grace Before the Reprieve
By Angel, Founder of AMC Rise and Thrive
🌿
Greetings, Beautiful Souls
I hope this reflection finds you exactly where you need to be
today.
Maybe you're feeling hopeful.
Maybe you're exhausted.
Maybe you're holding gratitude in one hand and frustration in
the other.
Maybe you're trying your best to be strong while secretly
wishing someone would give you permission to stop carrying so much for just a
little while.
If that's you, I want you to know you're not alone.
Today, I'm writing from a place that isn't polished or poetic.
It's honest.
My mom is home.
The doctors say we are looking good.
And I am grateful.
Truly grateful.
But if I'm being transparent, I'm also irritable.
Very irritable.
❤️ The
Truth About Surviving the Crisis
For months now, life has revolved around appointments,
medications, phone calls, insurance issues, fevers, monitoring, caregiving,
parenting, household responsibilities, and trying to keep everyone afloat.
The crisis demanded my attention.
And when crisis calls, you answer.
You show up.
You make the lists.
You ask the questions.
You advocate.
You put one foot in front of the other because there isn't
another option.
Adrenaline becomes fuel.
Purpose becomes momentum.
You do what has to be done.
The interesting thing about survival mode is that it doesn't
ask how you're feeling.
It simply asks what needs to happen next.
And somehow, you keep going.
Then something shifts.
The emergency settles.
The immediate danger lessens.
The doctors smile a little more.
The phone stops ringing quite as often.
The person you love comes home.
And suddenly, you realize how tired you actually are.
The adrenaline fades.
The emotions catch up.
The exhaustion you've been outrunning finally finds you.
I think that's where I am.
People keep saying, "Things are looking good."
And they are.
But two things can be true at once.
I can be thankful that my mom is home and improving.
And I can admit that I am completely worn down.
🌻 Everyone
Wants a Piece of You
Lately, it feels like everyone needs something.
My mom needs support.
My son needs attention.
Appointments still have to happen.
The house still needs to function.
People call.
People text.
People have questions.
Responsibilities continue piling up.
Meanwhile, my patience feels thinner than usual.
Little things annoy me.
Minor inconveniences suddenly feel enormous.
The sound of someone asking me one more question can make me
want to scream into the void.
If you've ever been there, you know exactly what I'm talking
about.
It doesn't make you a bad person.
It doesn't mean you're ungrateful.
It doesn't mean you've lost your compassion.
It means you're depleted.
There is a difference.
We often celebrate resilience without talking about the cost
of constantly being resilient.
Strength is beautiful.
But strength requires replenishment.
Even Jesus withdrew from the crowds.
Even He rested.
Even He stepped away to pray and restore Himself before
returning to serve.
Yet many of us have convinced ourselves that needing rest
somehow means we're failing.
What if exhaustion isn't a sign of weakness?
What if it's simply an invitation?
An invitation to pause.
To breathe.
To receive the care we so freely give others.
🌙 My
Season Is Coming
The New Moon arrives on the fourteenth.
Cancer season is just around the corner.
Summer officially begins.
And if you're familiar with astrology, you know Cancer season
feels like home to me.
Nurturing.
Protective.
Intuitive.
Reflective.
A season that honors emotional truth.
I've been thinking a lot about seasons lately.
Anyone else ever feel like life gets harder right before your
reprieve?
Like the universe is asking for one final stretch before
relief arrives?
Maybe it's not punishment.
Maybe it's preparation.
Maybe the final miles feel longer because we're approaching
something we've desperately needed.
I usually head back to Chicago around the end of June.
Chicago holds pieces of my story.
Memories.
Comfort.
Familiar streets.
A return to where parts of me were shaped.
This year, that trip isn't happening.
At least not right now.
And honestly?
That disappoints me.
I wanted that escape.
I wanted that change of scenery.
I wanted something that felt like mine.
Instead, life has other plans.
For now, I'll continue doing what needs to be done.
But if I'm being completely honest?
I'm over it.
And maybe admitting that is holy too.
Because pretending we're endlessly optimistic when we're
emotionally exhausted doesn't honor the truth of our experience.
God already knows.
He isn't intimidated by our honesty.
He can handle our frustration.
He can sit with our disappointment.
He can hold our exhaustion.
🌸 Learning
to Recharge Without Leaving
Maybe the recharge we need doesn't always come through plane
tickets and vacations.
Sometimes it arrives in smaller ways.
An uninterrupted shower.
A cup of coffee enjoyed while it's still hot.
A walk outside.
Ten minutes of silence.
A favorite song.
A nap.
A good cry.
An early bedtime.
Permission to say no.
Tiny moments become sacred when we're running on empty.
I'm learning that restoration isn't always grand.
Sometimes it's choosing to notice the ways God is already
meeting us where we are.
Perhaps rest isn't found only in changing our location.
Perhaps it begins when we stop expecting ourselves to operate
like machines.
Perhaps grace means lowering the bar just enough to survive
this season with tenderness toward ourselves.
Maybe today your only assignment is to rest where you can.
And trust that eventually, your reprieve will come.
✨
Affirmations
🤍 I honor
my need for rest without guilt.
🤍 I can be
grateful and exhausted at the same time.
🤍 God's
grace sustains me when my strength feels limited.
🤍 I
release the pressure to do everything perfectly.
🤍 My
season of renewal is coming.
📖 Bible
Verse
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not
dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I
will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
— Isaiah 41:10 (NKJV)
Lately, this verse feels less like a beautiful piece of
Scripture and more like a promise I am desperately holding onto.
Notice what God doesn't say.
He doesn't say that life will be easy.
He doesn't say there won't be seasons that stretch us beyond
what feels comfortable.
He doesn't say there won't be moments when we are exhausted,
frustrated, discouraged, or uncertain about what comes next.
Instead, He says, I am with you.
I will strengthen you.
I will help you.
I will uphold you.
There are seasons when we become so accustomed to holding
everyone else up that we forget God is also holding us.
As caregivers, parents, spouses, friends, and helpers, we
often become the steady ones—the people others depend on. Yet even the
strongest among us need support. Even those who appear to have it all together
need somewhere safe to place their weariness.
Maybe you've been carrying responsibilities that feel heavier
than you ever imagined.
Maybe you're doing your best to remain hopeful while quietly
running on empty.
Maybe you're wondering how much longer you can keep showing up
with the same strength and patience.
This verse reminds us that the burden was never ours to carry
alone.
When our hands begin to tremble from the weight of it all,
God's hand remains steady.
When our energy is depleted, His strength is not.
When we don't know how to take another step, He gently upholds
us and guides us forward.
You do not have to prove how strong you are by suffering in
silence.
You don't have to earn God's help by reaching a breaking
point.
You simply have to remember that you were never walking this
road by yourself.
He is with you.
Even here.
Especially here.
🎵 Song of
the Day
"Reach Out I'll Be There" by Four Tops
I chose this song because, if I'm being honest, this season
has reminded me how important it is to know that someone is there to help hold
you up when you feel like you can't keep going.
There are moments in life when we become the person everyone
else leans on.
We become the caregiver.
The organizer.
The encourager.
The one who keeps track of medications and appointments.
The one who answers questions and makes decisions.
The one who keeps moving because other people need us to.
But even the people who carry others sometimes need someone to
carry them.
The lyrics of this song speak to those moments when hope feels
distant, when confusion clouds our thinking, and when the weight of life makes
us question how much more we can handle.
"When you feel lost and about to give up,
'cause your best just ain't good enough..."
I think many of us know exactly what that feels like.
Not because we aren't trying hard enough.
Not because we lack faith.
But because we're human.
There are seasons when our best effort still leaves us
exhausted.
Seasons when we wonder if we're doing enough.
Seasons when our emotional reserves run dangerously low.
This song gently reminds us to do something many of us
struggle with:
Reach out.
Ask for help.
Lean on people who love you.
Allow others to sit beside you in your grief, fear,
frustration, and fatigue.
Music has always had a way of shifting my perspective and
helping me find my footing again. Sometimes a song becomes more than background
noise. It becomes a companion. A reminder. A prayer we didn't know how to pray
ourselves.
Right now, this song reminds me that although I may feel
stretched thin, I am not abandoned.
I have family.
I have people who care.
I have doctors and nurses walking alongside us.
I have readers who continue to encourage me.
And most importantly, I have a God who continually whispers,
"Reach out. I'm here."
As much as I know this difficult season won't last forever,
sometimes positivity doesn't look like pretending everything is okay.
Sometimes positivity simply means acknowledging that today is
hard while believing that tomorrow can still hold hope.
It means taking the next step.
Accepting the helping hand.
Allowing yourself to be supported.
And remembering that strength isn't found in carrying
everything alone.
So, if today you're feeling overwhelmed, weary, or like your
world is crumbling around you, let this be your reminder:
Reach out.
God hears you.
The people who love you want to help.
You don't have to have all the answers.
You don't have to be endlessly strong.
You don't have to carry every burden by yourself.
There are hands reaching back toward you.
There is love surrounding you.
And there is hope waiting on the other side of this season.
Hold on.
You're going to make it through.
🌷 Final
Thoughts
Maybe this is your reminder that being "over it"
doesn't mean you've lost faith.
Maybe it means you've been carrying too much for too long.
Maybe it means it's time to stop pretending you're unaffected
by what you've survived.
My mom is home.
The doctors are hopeful.
The season is shifting.
And while I don't know exactly what the weeks ahead will hold,
I do know this:
I don't have to carry tomorrow today.
Neither do you.
Rest when you can.
Cry if you need to.
Laugh when it finds you.
Ask for help.
Receive grace.
And trust that just because this chapter feels heavy doesn't
mean it lasts forever.
Your reprieve is coming.
Until next time, beautiful souls, continue to rise, continue
to thrive, and remember that even when you're running on empty, God's love
never does.
With love and gratitude,
Angel 🤍
AMC Rise and Thrive
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