When Love Becomes Action: Walking Through Cancer, Caregiving, and Hope
When Love Becomes Action: Walking Through Cancer, Caregiving, and Hope
By Angel, Founder of AMC Rise and Thrive
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Greetings, Beautiful Souls
I hope this message finds you wrapped in grace, strength, and
moments of peace, no matter what season of life you are currently walking
through.
Today, I want to share something deeply personal. It is not
one of my usual reflections about spiritual growth, moon phases, or
self-discovery. Instead, it comes from a place of real-life challenges, long
hospital hallways, endless appointments, difficult decisions, and learning how
powerful love can be when it is put into action.
Sometimes our greatest spiritual lessons do not come during
meditation, prayer, or quiet reflection.
Sometimes they come while sitting beside a hospital bed.
Sometimes they come while advocating for someone we love.
Sometimes they come while carrying responsibilities we never
expected to carry.
And sometimes they come while choosing hope, even when fear
keeps knocking at the door.
Today was one of those days.
❤️ A
Milestone We Have Been Waiting For
Today was a big day for my mom.
After months of appointments, testing, treatments, paperwork,
insurance battles, and learning more medical terminology than I ever imagined
possible, she received her CAR T-cell infusion.
For those unfamiliar with CAR T-cell therapy, it is a highly
personalized form of cancer treatment that uses a person's own immune system to
fight cancer.
Doctors collect a patient's T cells, which are a type of white
blood cell responsible for helping the body fight illness. Those cells are then
sent to a laboratory where they are specially modified and multiplied. Once
they are ready, they are infused back into the patient's body, where they can
recognize and attack cancer cells more effectively.
In simple terms, it is like giving the body's natural defense
system a powerful upgrade and sending it back into battle.
The process itself is incredible when you really think about
it.
Science has advanced to a place where doctors can use a
person's own cells as a weapon against cancer.
That alone feels remarkable.
It feels like one of those moments where human knowledge,
perseverance, and God's provision meet in a powerful way.
Now we wait.
We monitor.
We pray.
We trust.
And we hope.
🌸
Understanding My Mom's Journey
My mom was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia, often
called CLL, nearly nine years ago.
CLL is a type of blood cancer that affects white blood cells
called lymphocytes. It typically progresses slowly, and many people live with
it for years before requiring significant treatment.
When my mom was first diagnosed, she was Stage 0.
Finding it early was a blessing.
At the time, we knew there would be challenges ahead, but we
were thankful it had been discovered before it became more advanced.
Over the years, she has tried multiple treatments. Some worked
for a while. Others didn't provide the results we hoped for.
Eventually, she found a treatment that was working extremely
well.
Then life threw another obstacle in our path.
Her employer switched insurance companies.
The medication that had been helping her was suddenly no
longer covered.
I still struggle to understand how life-saving medications can
become inaccessible because of insurance decisions.
Maybe there are explanations hidden inside policy language and
financial reports.
Maybe there are numbers and calculations behind those
decisions.
But when you are watching someone you love fight cancer, all
you see is a medication helping them stay alive.
It becomes difficult to understand why access to that
treatment can disappear overnight.
One of the hardest battles since last August has been her
dangerously low platelet counts.
Doctors wanted to prescribe a medication specifically designed
to help.
Initially, we were fortunate enough to receive grant
assistance.
But when Medicare became involved, that assistance ended.
Then came the number.
$42,000.
For a thirty-day supply.
I remember hearing that amount and thinking I must have
misunderstood.
Forty-two thousand dollars?
For one month?
That is more than many people spend on a vehicle.
How can anyone reasonably afford that?
Moments like that reveal just how broken parts of our
healthcare system can feel to families facing serious illness.
Yet somehow, despite every obstacle, we kept moving forward.
One appointment at a time.
One phone call at a time.
One day at a time.
💪 Becoming
the Advocate
Since the twenty-fifth, it feels like our lives have revolved
around appointments.
The Bone Marrow Transplant clinic operates every single day of
the year.
Weekends.
Holidays.
Every day.
Cancer does not take days off.
Neither do the people fighting it.
Neither do the caregivers walking beside them.
There has been so much information to absorb.
So many instructions.
So many medications.
So many test results.
So many conversations.
At times it has felt overwhelming.
As an only child, there is no one else to divide these
responsibilities with.
There is no committee making decisions.
There is no backup team waiting in the wings.
It is me.
And because of that reality, I had to step into a larger role.
I activated my mother's Power of Attorney and assumed
responsibility for helping coordinate and manage her medical care.
That was not a decision I made lightly.
It was a decision made from necessity and love.
One thing I have learned about myself through this journey is
that I approach challenges very logically.
I ask questions.
A lot of questions.
If I do not understand something, I keep asking until I do.
Some people may not always appreciate my approach.
I know I can be direct.
I know I can be persistent.
But I also know that when someone you love is facing a serious
illness, you cannot afford to be passive.
You have to advocate.
You have to speak up.
You have to seek clarity.
You have to pay attention.
You have to become comfortable asking difficult questions.
And sometimes you have to push until you get answers.
Love is not always soft.
Sometimes love looks like determination.
Sometimes love looks like paperwork.
Sometimes love looks like organizing medications.
Sometimes love looks like sitting through appointments while
taking pages of notes.
And sometimes love looks like refusing to give up.
The encouraging news is that her doctors are optimistic.
They are giving her a 70% chance of significant improvement
and a 30% chance of remission.
Those are hopeful numbers.
They are numbers worth celebrating.
They are numbers worth praying over.
They are numbers worth believing in.
🌻 To Every
Caregiver Reading This
There is something I want to say directly to anyone caring for
a loved one.
I see you.
I understand more than I ever did before.
Caregiving is one of the hardest jobs a person can have.
It is physically exhausting.
Emotionally draining.
Mentally overwhelming.
Spiritually challenging.
You carry responsibilities that many people never see.
You become a scheduler, advocate, researcher, chauffeur,
medication manager, emotional support system, and problem solver all at once.
You learn medical terminology you never wanted to know.
You spend hours on phone calls.
You worry constantly.
You celebrate small victories that others may not understand.
And often, you do all of this while trying to hold your own
life together.
The truth is that caregivers need support too.
We need encouragement.
We need rest.
We need understanding.
We need grace.
Most importantly, we need to remember that we cannot pour
endlessly from an empty cup.
If you are caring for someone right now, please remember that
your well-being matters too.
Taking care of yourself is not selfish.
It is necessary.
You cannot sustain others if you completely neglect yourself.
Give yourself permission to rest when you can.
Give yourself permission to ask for help.
Give yourself permission to feel whatever emotions arise.
And give yourself credit for the countless things you are
doing that nobody else sees.
God sees them.
Every single one.
✨
Affirmations
🤍 I am stronger than I realize.
🤍 I trust God to guide me through uncertain
seasons.
🤍 I am capable of handling today's challenges.
🤍 Hope lives within me even when circumstances
are difficult.
🤍 Love gives me strength to keep moving
forward.
📖 Bible
Verse
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and
courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will
be with you wherever you go."
— Joshua 1:9 (NIV)
This verse has taken on a deeper meaning for me recently.
Notice that God does not promise an easy road.
He does not promise a life free from hardship, illness,
uncertainty, or heartbreak.
Instead, He promises His presence.
He promises that we do not walk alone.
There is comfort in knowing that even in hospital rooms,
waiting areas, difficult conversations, and uncertain outcomes, God remains
with us.
His presence is constant.
His love is unwavering.
His strength is available when ours feels depleted.
🎵 Song of
the Day
"Invisible Sun" — The Police
Every blog post has a song that seems to find its way into the
message, and today that song is Invisible Sun by The Police.
At first glance, the song may seem like it is about surviving
difficult circumstances in the world around us. It speaks about darkness,
struggle, hardship, and living through situations that feel impossible. Yet
woven throughout the song is a powerful message of hope. The repeated reminder
that "there has to be an invisible sun" becomes a symbol of faith
when we cannot yet see the outcome.
To me, that invisible sun represents the hope that continues
shining even when life feels overshadowed by fear, illness, uncertainty, or
loss.
Over the past several months, there have been many moments
when it felt like we were standing in that darkness.
There were insurance battles.
There were endless appointments.
There were frightening lab results.
There were medications that seemed financially impossible to
obtain.
There were moments of exhaustion and frustration that felt
overwhelming.
And there were times when I found myself wondering how
families are expected to navigate all of this.
One particular line in the song has stayed with me:
"I don't ever want to play the part of a
statistic on a government chart."
While the song was written in a completely different context,
those words struck me deeply during this journey.
Cancer affects millions of people every year. Every diagnosis
represents a real person, a real family, and real lives that are forever
changed. Yet sometimes it can feel as though people become numbers on reports,
insurance claims, spreadsheets, or medical charts.
When my mom's condition became more aggressive, I realized I
could not simply sit back and hope someone else would take charge.
I stepped forward because I refused to let her become another
statistic.
I stepped forward because she deserved someone asking
questions.
She deserved someone paying attention.
She deserved someone fighting beside her.
She deserved someone willing to challenge obstacles and seek
answers.
If I had not stepped in when I did, I honestly believe things
could have looked very different today.
That realization is both sobering and motivating.
It reminds me that advocacy matters.
Showing up matters.
Speaking up matters.
Love matters.
The beautiful thing about Invisible Sun is that despite
acknowledging darkness, it never surrenders to it.
The song insists that hope exists, even when we cannot see it
clearly.
That message feels especially meaningful right now.
Today, after receiving her CAR T-cell infusion, we stand at
the beginning of a new chapter.
We do not know exactly what comes next.
We cannot see the entire path ahead.
But we can see enough to keep moving forward.
We can see enough to keep believing.
We can see enough to keep hoping.
Cancer is devastating.
Far too many families have been touched by it.
Far too many caregivers understand the exhaustion, fear, and
uncertainty that accompany a serious diagnosis.
Yet I have also witnessed incredible strength.
I have seen resilience.
I have seen compassion.
I have seen medical teams dedicate themselves to helping
people heal.
I have seen communities rally around families in need.
And I have seen God's hand moving through circumstances that
seemed impossible.
That is the invisible sun.
The light we cannot always see immediately.
The hope that remains even when circumstances are difficult.
The reminder that darkness is never the entire story.
If you are facing your own battle today, whatever that battle
may be, I hope this song reminds you of something important:
There is still light.
There is still possibility.
There is still reason to hope.
There is still strength within you.
And there is still a God who walks beside you through every
challenge.
Sometimes the invisible sun is not visible because it has
disappeared.
Sometimes it is simply hidden behind the clouds for a little
while.
Keep going.
Keep believing.
The light is still there.
🌷 Final
Thoughts
Today marks the beginning of a new chapter in my mom's
journey.
There are still unknowns ahead.
There will be more appointments.
More monitoring.
More waiting.
More prayers.
But there is also hope.
There is possibility.
There is faith.
And there is the remarkable resilience of the human spirit.
If you are facing your own battle right now—whether it is
cancer, caregiving, grief, financial stress, or another challenge entirely—I
hope you remember this:
You do not have to know every step ahead.
You only need enough strength for the step you are taking
today.
Keep showing up.
Keep believing.
Keep praying.
Keep loving.
Keep hoping.
Sometimes the greatest victories begin with simply refusing to
quit.
Until next time, beautiful souls, continue to rise, continue
to thrive, and remember that even in life's hardest seasons, light can still be
found.
With love and gratitude,
Angel 🤍
AMC Rise and Thrive
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